Well, unfortunately, the end of the challenge kind of fizzled out for me. I just ran out of time and had no motivation to finish it out. But it’s OK though, I learned a lot about audition preparation over the last 14 weeks despite being unable to finish it out. If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile, you know that I have been struggling with audition day nerves and being able to come through when it counted. I think I’ve finally figured out some of the missing pieces.
Technical preparation, while a large part, is only just part of it.
In my mind I have always known this, but had always been a little bit in denial. Yes, while being able to execute each excerpt effectively is very, very important, I found that recording a weekly video in one take with no re-dos for all the world to see brought one aspect to the preparation that I had been missing. Before, I didn’t do any sort of mock auditions until only a couple weeks prior to the audition, but now I understand the benefit of doing mock performances throughout the preparation process, even when the technique isn’t quite there yet.
I learned how to visualize. And it wasn’t how I thought it would be!
This challenge forced me to visualize, and to make visualization work for me. I learned pretty quickly that visualizing in a sequential way (like watching a movie in my head) really didn’t work for me. And that’s why I had always given up on visualizations before now. It was REALLY hard, and it didn’t seem to work very well. Or I would visualize, and my brain would literally skip over the hard parts. What ended up working for me was visualizing only certain aspects. For example, if I often flubbed a certain note in a certain passage, I would take a moment to visualize myself playing that note perfectly prior to actually playing the passage. Worked every time! It helped to make a small list of things to visualize for each excerpt, so I wouldn’t waste time trying to remember what the weak areas were.
Fundamentals are key.
OK, I didn’t actually learn this, because I’ve known this for a while now. But this challenge proved just how important fundamentals are. You can get away with a lot if you just go through your fundamental skills every day. I can’t tell you how many practice sessions in this challenge were spent only playing my fundamentals. And yet I was somehow able to get away with recording the excerpts without ever falling on my face! Honestly, I didn’t put all that much time into practicing excerpts.
What’s next now? Well, honestly I have the next two weeks to get through for work. It is the 75th anniversary of the Pearl Harbor attack on December 7, and there are so many ceremonies and memorials! Its weeks like this that make me feel needed in the Navy! I’m in charge of the woodwind quintet so I have a lot of work to do. Despite that, I’m going to attempt to start the challenge again after Thanksgiving. I have decided (for now) to audition for Navy Band in February. I might change my mind, there’s a lot of factors that could keep me from going. But its easier to quit preparation already in progress than to get an audition ready at the last minute. I’m already a little behind, if I start after Thanksgiving weekend, it only gives me 11 weeks to prepare. But the excerpt list is short (click here to see) and not too crazy.
I’ve already created the whole plan of action. I freaking love spreadsheets, so I created one to organize it all:
There it is, week 11-0. And I’ve already separated the excerpts into practice groups, and I have a video assignment planned for each week. I’ve also separated the whole thing into phases: phase 1 is wood-shedding/technical practice (orange), phase 2 is polishing (green), and final preparation/taper (blue). You might notice the two and a half weeks in the middle of phase 1 that is grayed out. We’re coming home to Colorado for Christmas, and I’m not planning on taking my instrument home with me. I need the break. Plus, with all the crap we will be traveling with (see: traveling with a baby), I don’t want to be lugging a clarinet case along. And whenever I bring my horn on visits home, I never really play. So I decided to really work on visualizing and listening during that time. I’ve never devoted that much time to mental practice, so it should be interesting. And coming back to playing in January should be a fun time. Heyoooo endurance. But, I have about six weeks from when I get back home to Hawaii to the audition, so I should be alright.
I would have started the challenge this week (give myself 12 weeks instead of 11), but I know better. With the holiday and everything, I’m not going to be able to commit the time I want, so I’m just skipping it. I’m only committing to practice on my work days, and only have a two day work week. Not a lot that can get done in those two days.
I’m also not going to be as strict with posting videos this time around. Again, I know better. I will still be recording videos (because they help!), and they will eventually be posted, but I’m not going to stress about blogging about it. I’ll get to it when I get to it!
My son will also be turning one in a couple weeks…it is hard to believe how fast this year has gone. It seems like it was just the other day that he was born. Now he’s walking, talking (sort of), and developing into his own little person. Its amazing.
So happy Thanksgiving! The next few weeks are going to be pretty insane, so I will probably see you on the other side!